She was born again and finally happy
I come from Christian family and since I was a little I prayed prayer to angels which my grandma taught me. I prayed this prayer until I was 13 years old. When I turned 13, it was my breaking point. Doctors found out I had scoliosis and there was a possibility I had to have surgery. But they gave me a corset for 3 years to see if anything will change. When I was 16 I had to have the surgery. Two weeks before the surgery I visited my family and they were going to church and they took us there as well. There was an invitation to accept Jesus as saviour and my parents and I accepted this invitation. We wanted Jesus in our lives. After I had the surgery it was a very difficult time for me and it took some time to get off the hook of it. I have 12 screws in my body. The recovery was long. I was 18 years old when I finally felt ok and so my dad told me that I was an adult so I could do whatever I wanted to do. And so I told myself that I had the right to enjoy my life right now because I did not have the stage in my life as the other girls have. They want to look good, they had group of friends, and I did not have that because I was at home most of the time and I avoided the time with others. So I wanted to enjoy my life now.
I knew what alcohol was and I enjoyed it, but I was not happy. It did not fulfill me even though I thought this was the right thing but it was not, because I wanted to find the meaning of life and I did not find it.
I was hiding my sadness behind wanting to look good. Mirror and the feeling of looking good was very important for me. I have thought I will hide the reality of my life behind it. I also lived abroad but I think I sank very low in my behaviour. I started to lie to my parents and it was a very difficult time in my life. I could see that I was far from God as well. When we came home we had found church. And there I realised what it means to find a real home.
This time I have decided to give everything to God.
And so I got baptised and I know that I was born again and my life with God really started. I gave him everything that I was worried about, I gave him everything that I have considered as richness and he did not make me poor but I have found the real richness. God has given me a godly husband, two beautiful children and now we can serve people, who are looking for the meaning of life and cannot find it, together. I know that the only thing that can make someone happy and fulfil their heart is Jesus Christ.